As part of the boredom that I call my life, I have decided to write a diary of my thoughts. My self diagnosis is that I have OCD and  ADD and my thoughts are racing through my mind like nascar. To trap these thoughts, as referenced through Wikipedia, writing it down helps tremendously.  So I am going to freewrite until Im exhausted.

My best friend got married and will be having a kid soon. At first I hated it because I hate change. I blamed the chick, called her Yoko Ono. I made jokes about it and I think that he took it seriously. I apologize. I hate fucking change. I don’t accept change, I cant stand it. What is the problem with wanting things to stay the same? Or go back to the way it was. But that’s also change and so really there is no way to go about it. It took me about four months to accept change. The chick turned out to be awesome and blaming her was unfair. I apologize for that. On the subject of change, I have seen myself change as well. Gone is the liberal, I hate god and the world person that people loved to hate. I see myself as becoming more conservative. I accepted that there is a god but I hate the church. On a side note, I watched the movie “Milk” the other day. A- movie. I realized why I hate church so much. Did you notice that most of the problems in today’s society is brought by the church? That’s why I don’t go. Its not because I don’t believe in God or JC but because of the people that run it. They go off and preach that this is what JC meant to say. Bunch of hypocrites. Anyways. I got asked why the change in thinking. I theorized that if I die, I would want to go to heaven. So I had to bargain. But I’m not going to become those robot JC lovers. But what hasn’t changed is my attention span lasting only 15 minutes. I’m figuratively speaking on that one. I can’t be satisfied with stuff. For example, I bought the XB a year ago. Six months after I got the XB, I regretted buying it because I wanted something else. I always find the bad things and make it bigger. The issue with the XB is that it gets 28 mpg and I want something with more mpg than that.